Boys of my life or Just for the Boys!First part early 96 to early 98

I remember when I first got interested in guys.I was 12 years old.Untill then I thought I would be a lesbian.I thought Paul MCcartney in his "Sgt Peppers" years looked hot,Hulk Hogan,Leo Di Caprio,Liam Ghallegher,Peter Steele,etc
Them I got tired of all the celebrities and ran off to find a REAL man.I remember this english guy,not,sir,it´s not you,hi´s name was Robert,hehehehehe.I thought he was cool because he was in university and I was at 6th grade!We both had the same love for the Beatles and Oasis.I met him in this internet community called "Firefly",that later became "MSN"!Then he stopped talking to me because he discovered I was 13 and on 6th grade!And I discovered he was 15 and on 8th grade!
Then just messing around my desktop in late 1996 i discovered "Netscape Chat"!Mirc´s soundless colourless older brother.I randomly typed#england and #beatles and BAM! There was where all these people from England who liked the Beatles!If it wasn´t heaven it got close enough!I remember listenig to "Revolver" as loud as I could and talking to all those people,who I thought where A-MA-ZING!/irc.dal.net I typed that so much in my life!It was for quite some time my source of happines and mental balance.Now,I´m going to talk about you,how about that?I´m going to call you "CuriousGeorge",how about that!Everytime we chatted it felt as if I wasn´t the last surviving human being on earth.He liked Bjork and Portishead!!!I thought I was the only person in the world who knew them!At 13 knowing,that in the middle of the world there´s someone who likes the same things as you it´s just fantastic.He used to have these amazing surealist writings that were quite similar to mines.I have some where in the middle of my mess.I have a picture of him from when he was 15!!!He used to paint his nails,not in a homosexual way,in 1996-1997 there was this fad of straight intelingent men painting their nails.Next time I would see this was in my city´s goth and metal scene.I thought that was amazing because now OFFICIALLY me and my mates like EXACTLY the same things.The double Ms that where the stream of our lives Men and Music!Now he owns a club in Prague,didn´t want to be identified,doesn´t paint his nails anymore,doesn´t write surrealist fictions anymore,doesn´t listen to Bjork anymore,doesn´t listen to Portishead anymore,now he´s boring.In result,besides from owning a club in Prague,which is QUITE cool,he became a VERY uncool person.
Paralel to this outside MCLuhan´s cybersymolacron at my school I met this IN-CRE-DI-BLE guy because of the movie "Antonia",whe where at the same movie theatre watching it.If my like was the "Wonder Years" he´d be one of the various Pauls(best friends) I have in my life.Now it was such pleasure having someone who liked the same things I liked at my school.His name´s Kyle,if I was a bloke I´d be him!We we´re two outcasts at school,nobody wanted to hang out with us!Yet our happiness and creativity never let that bother us!Whatching underground movies,listening to underground music,talking about blokes and being toghether that was just out of sight!Everytime ,"Here there and everywhere",played,me and Kyle shutted our eyes and dreamed about snogging Noel or Liam Gallagher.Life is sweet when you are 13 and dicovering plesure.While everybody was doing "The bottle dance" and "the butt dance" we used to dance around with "Yellow Submarine","Penny Lane"(we used to calle it "Penis Lane") and "Getting Better".At that time I started saying some of my famous catch phrases:
"I want to live in London","I want a man"(maybe for saying that so much,at that age,most of my guy friends became gay :P ) and "Why doesn´t he love me?"

In 1997 i moved back to my hometown and back to the school I used to study as a child.From August 1997 forward things started getting phisical.The cool,hot,straight guys started showing up and Saul!!!!!!!!!Saul is definetly a Paul in my Wonder Years.He likes Bjork,Portishead ,the Beatles and Men!!!There´s so much good things to remember and say about him.We used to be part of the underground gang at school,we used to sit on the top of the stairs to show we where superior than the others.It used to be me,Raul,Manoel,Alencar,Rodrigues and Chico.Indie,goth,techno,anything that wasn´t usual it use to be our subject at break time.

Then,what wasn´t weird in Recife,during the 90´s.We did a hell of a revolution!
Inside my classroom there was this boy.we used to do this thing everyday,I kissed his cheek,near his lips,and go extreamly red,then he kissed my cheek near my lips and went red too.At the end we putted our heads toghether and open a big smile.We never got tired of this,wonder why?He used to be this short skinny boy 2 years younger than me,lovely straight blonde hair,glasses and gourgeous green eyes.I was 14,15 years old.He´s half british and half japanese.How cool is that?He used to draw pictures of me during classes.I called him my Jack Dawson and he called me his RoseHe liked J-culture,Videogames,Mangas and Anime.God!I still get tears in my eyes when I think about him..He hated Bjork,couldn´t stand the sound of Portishead and thought that Prodigy sucked.He prefered punk bands the Ramones,Rancid and Rage Against the Machine.We used to discuss socialism toghether instead of boys.In my Wonder Years he was my first Winnie.

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